Pursuit

To be violently chased by God as my heart gasps for air.. Why am I running? You would think it would be much easier to just stand still and let Him pursue me right? The fight within seems to be greater than my desire to let Him catch up with me.. you see having the knowledge of God and knowing God our two separate things. While my heart desires to know this man the knowledge that I have already gained has yet to become a reality within. Many years I've searched for Him not knowing that it was Him who I was looking for. As the cares of life sweep over me the waves I can no longer see above. Though war rages within my soul I am confident that He is very near to me. Reality is this ..when you think you know God circumstances will try you to see if you really know Him as well as you think you do.Although I'm faced with opposition it must be embraced because it comes to make me stronger.

So I stop running.... I'm standing here and He meets me right where I am. At this point I'm prepared for the worst to happen but instead He just whispers "I love you" and walks away What ? so you mean to tell me that God only chased me down to tell me He loves me? what kind of man is this? I attempt to catch up with Him gasping for air I wanted to know what He meant when He said He loved me. .. I can see Him in a distance and now He no longer pursues me but I pursue Him. I'm on a desperate pursuit for love....